Bus Haiku

I was about to
sit beside you but you chose
to put earphones on.

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Isa lang ang hindi mo pwede sabihin.

Marami kang pwedeng sabihin. Sabihin mo na lahat.

Sabihin mo nang nagkulang ako.
Na hindi mo naman nakita yung hinahanap mo kahit wala na akong maitatago pa.

Sabihin mo nang hindi ako sumugal.
Na hindi ako nag-lakas loob na gawin ang mga bagay na gusto mong gawin ko kahit isa na lang ang chip ko sa Texas Hold’Em Poker na ‘to. Ubos na lahat. Masyadong maalat ang mga baraha ko.

Sabihin mo nang malabo na ito.
Na hindi mo na alam kung saan papunta ito kahit ikaw ang pinili kong ending.

Sabihin mo nang tapos.
Na hindi ka na makahagilap ng dahilan kahit saan kahit nasa harap mo na ako.

Isa lang ang hindi mo pwedeng sabihin.

I cannot wait to sing for you my silly impromptu songs.

Songs about you.
Songs about us and
songs about
everything in between and
everything around.

Songs that will cap the night or make your day. Songs that will last for hours or days, months or years.
I promise to sing you songs to make you

smile and then
laugh and then
eager

eager to hear what the next song will be about.

Isang Liham

Mahal kong F,

Nais kong sabihin sa iyo na lubos ang aking kaligayahan ngayong ikaw ay muli kong nakapiling. Tunay ngang kapag tayo’y magkasama, hindi maikakailang tayo ay ganap.

Ipinagmamalaki kita sa iba dahil sa kabila ng aking madalas na pag-alis, ikaw ay ikaw pa rin, buo at matatag. Sa totoo lang – at ito ay aking napagtanto – ay mas kailangan kita kaysa sa kailangan mo ako.

Ipagpatawad mo na ang aking pagdalaw sa iyo’y parati nang saglit lamang. Sa mga panahong ako’y wala, lubos ang ligaya dahil alam kong tangan mo pa rin sa iyong puso ang ilang bahagi kong hindi aalis at naroon lamang, magpapasabik hanggang sa aking muling pagbabalik.

Ngayon nga’y lilisan na akong muli na may kabigatan sa aking damdamin. Gayunpaman, nais kong malaman mo na sa bawat oras, minuto at segundo na kasama ka’y lalo kong napatunayang kahit saang dako ako maghanap ay walang ibang langit akong matatagpuan kung hindi sa piling mo lamang.

Ang bawat paalam ko ay may kakabit na ngiti dahil alam kong magkikita tayong muli.

Hanggang sa tayo’y muling pagtagpuin ng tadhana,

Abentenueve.

The Case for February

We all love February because it reminds us that just like us, even the days and the months are not perfect.

February willingly gives up its right to 30/31 days just so we can all call it a year. February gathers the bits and pieces – the quarters of a day – every year and after four years, solves the puzzle, makes it a leap year and rightly puts spring and autumn where they really belong.

February lets January go first and is really okay with being second. But February also gives you a second chance to have a great year if January didn’t go well. February eases you into the brand new year and asks you to take it slow – something January will never do.

You can pronounce February with or without the ‘r’ because February knows you will make mistakes and needs to be forgiven over and over. You can even just write ‘Feb’ because February knows you don’t have any other month starting with the same letters. August knows this too but August is too preoccupied with telling you that the -ber months are coming.

February yearly makes good on its promise that it will give us ample time (a full day) to evaluate why, who and how we love or if we really have to go through the process at all.

This is our month.

We are all Februaries.

Tama na yung biruan. Totohanin na iyan.

Itigil na kasi yung laro-laro at biruan. Nakakainis.
Dapat kasi sineseryoso. Tinototoo natin lahat. Para sa atin din naman ito e.

Ayusin yung dapat ayusin habang pwede pa para hindi tayo magsisihan sa huli.
Para walang uuwing talo at luhaan (kahit siyempre minsan hindi maiiwasan).

Okay lang kahit walang pasabi at walang warning signs.
Kasi dapat naman talaga handa ka sa kahit ano. Chaotic naman talaga kasi ito.

Dapat yung tipong kung may masasaktan, edi masaktan. Kasama naman talaga yun diba.
Hindi yung kukuyakoy ka kasi tingin mo okay lang ang lahat, yun pala huli na.

Oo, mahirap, nakakalito, masalimuot, nakakapagod, hindi kumportable, sobrang effort at umasa kang talagang sisirain ang konsepto ng mga nakasanayan na.

Pero worth it.

Ganun naman talaga kapag pag-ibig earthquake drill eh.

On rainbows.

Kung sino yung nagsasabi na mas tama yung pag-ibig niya, ito yung pinakamagandang chance para ipakita ito.

Announcement: Kung sino yung nagsasabi na mas tama yung pag-ibig niya, ito yung pinakamagandang chance para ipakita ito. :)

Siyempre hindi sa Facebook. Kasi kapag sa Facebook or Twitter lang, madali lang magsalita. Madali mag-post pero kapag harapan na, wala naman pala. Tsaka napakadaling mamisinterpret lahat ng sasabihin mo dito kasi kahit masidhi yung feels mo sa pinaniniwalaan mo, hindi kayang ma-appropriate fully ng readers. Akala natin nandito sa social mija ang laban. Pero mahirap makakumbinsi dito promise.

Kapag nasa labas na, makikita ang brand mo ng pag-ibig talaga. Kapag ba hindi ni-like ang status message mo or nakipagdebate at ayaw magpatalo, hindi na rin kayo bati in real life? Babaw nun toooohl.

Mga LGBT friends, dahil friends tayo, alam niyo naman ang stand ko on this. If I made you feel less human in any way because of what I believe, I am really sorry. I am sorry that at times I have been hurtful and have been a hypocrite about my beliefs. Sorry sa mga panahong feeling ko sobrang perfect ko na just because of what I believe in. I am really sorry. But I still believe in the Biblical definition of marriage and its views on homosexuality. I still believe that God loves you and has a wonderful plan for your life. If by posting this, I have crossed the line sa ating friendship, know that I am truly sorry for that.

I can quote, copy and paste all the verses here but to what end? Para mag-away tayo? So I can feel good about it? Nah. Sa labas tayo mag-usap. Huwag dito. Hindi tayo magkakaintindihan dito.

I can promise you one thing though: by the grace of God, I will continue to try to love you the way Christ loved me. And I am sure I will fail at times. But you will still have my ears when you need someone to talk to. I will still make it a point to be there when you need me to be. I wil try my best to be a good friend even if we will never see eye to eye on many things.

I will end this with something I got from Michael Ramsden:
(EDIT: apparently Ramsden only RT’ed this from the banksy Twitter account. The banksy account has never been made an official account by Twitter because nobody knows who banksy really is.)
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